Loki's sorrow

Loki's sorrow

A figure formed in my memory,
neither ghost nor dead substance.
You are the sorrow and treat
thank you now, what you gave.

You gave self-confidence and knowledge,
you kept me in your arms.
Only you've seen my sorrow,
I will not show it to anyone else.

You taught and brought me up,
called me your beloved son.
"Proud boy, you're a royal blood,
then compare everything for that! "

The shadow is deep when the sun is bright,
I'm a convict at now ‘til I die,
and surrounded by shadows in past of mine.
Your dreams never told but lies.

Now I'm not a king, but a mute prisoner,
you also said my all crimes.
And I disowned you, mother,
look my defiant behaviour.

It's too late for the anger and sorrow,
it's too late for the remorse,
That word was unspoken.
And I have no tears, all are lost.

I keep my anger like others keeps faith,
I'll never get absolution, they never gave
I have no hope, no more, never,
You’ve already died, my mother.

In the night of 28.07.2018.